What do I know!!

Well here i go......

I really am not into all this newfangled technology! My oldest daughter has been telling me for years I should get Myface or Spacebook. My reply has always been "are you kidding?, the stuff I hear that other people are putting on there, No way that's not for me!!!!"

Sooooo, she has finally convinced me to start a Blog. We will see how it goes :)

I got the name Mother "F" form my middle child, Linda and her friends. At first I was shocked when she called me that and then I laughed. Now thats what i'm called on a regular basis.

I am the mom to 3 very different (but, all beautiful) girls. They all are very smart and on more than 1 occasion have told me I don't know what I'm talking about!!! When Brandie was little she once told me, " just wait til i'm the mom and your the kid"! Linda told me " i'm not having kids because i'm afraid i'll be like you"! And last but not least is Mary who told me, "when I have kids i'm going to let them do whatever they want and I will never tell them NO"!!

I'm still waiting for the out come of all 3 remarks. Hopefully one day I can share them with you.

All I know is right here and now "Mom" is the most difficult and rewarding job I have had. I have laughed and cried with all 3 of them. That old saying "I am as happy as my unhappiest child" is so darn true!!

The other thing I know is that if GOD was not present in my life i would not have survived!! Yes, believe me there is no greater pain than seeing one of your children suffer. And I must admit there are times when I almost lost my faith in GOD. I felt as though my children are far to young to be going through the challenges they have been faced with!!

Mary suffered from severe anxiety and depression for several years, which began when she was in third grade. No child that young should have those kind of problems. Mary attempted to take her life in Jr. High. My biggest heartbreak was when she said to me "mom, your life would be so much better if you would just let me kill myself!" My response to her was "are you kidding me! my life would be very boring without you"!!! Thank fully Mary started attending Wheaton Bible Church in High School and has found her calling. She is in Spokane, Washington attending Moody Bible Institute. GOD is good!!

Then there was that awful phone call from Brandie, crying, telling me "Mom I have Breast Cancer" I was telling her it will be ok it's probably not bad, your going to be fine. I will be right over". Talk about a kick in the gut!! I cried my eyes out all the way to her house. I just kept asking God, why would you let this happen to my daughter???? She has 3 young children and a husband, she does not deserve this. She has been fighting a good fight. Thankfully chemo is almost over! I still cry myself to sleep some nights praying to God to make her well. God is still working on this prayer for me!!!

The positive side for me has been being able to spend time with my grandchildren. Oh the joy they bring to my life. They always put a smile on my face. Brandie is still home schooling Abigail and Emma. Thank goodness they don't have to ask me to many questions about their school work. I just occasionally have to give a spelling test. Because, let me tell you, I felt really stupid the other day when Abigail asked me "Grandma whats a mill?" I said do you mean a milliliter? she said "no a M-I-L-L". I said "well there are windmills and watermills". She said "that doesn't make sense because I have to figure out how many dimes, pennies and mills each person is suppose to get."
I said "oh, you better bring me your book so I can look at that problem because it doesn't make sense to me either." Well, a mill is one tenth of a penny!! I did not know that!!!

Then theres Linda, She has just had a few small mishaps and has gotten through them all. Linda is actually the funniest of my 3 girls. She is always calling me from College and telling me she is failing all her classes and shes QUITTING!!!! Initially these calls would send me into a panic. So many things would go through my mind, like, is she going to hurt herself. Oh, my gosh shes at school and I'm not there and she is so upset. Well, now she's a Junior and yes I still get the calls. But, now I know she'll be fine. She always ends up with good grades. That's just her way of dealing with frustration. I pray to God that Linda will stay healthy and safe. So far so good.

Oh, I better not forget my Wonderful Husband Tom. Yes, he has made me cry too! I won't go into that. For the most part he has been my rock. He gives me great perspective when I get all worked up about my girls.

Well, that's all I know for today. God Bless each and every one of you!